Poetry by Ivan Ridge Arbizo | January 31, 2022
Hait ang awit
sa kwaknit nga nasangit
sa kalasangan.
Galanog-lanog
ang siyaok sa hubakong
iring sa atop.
*
Lusok sa uwan,
gibisbisan ang lawas
sa patayng langgam.
Ivan Ridge Arbizo lives in Davao City.
Fiction by Alvin Larida | January 31, 2022
Bag-o nagsugod ang lockdown: Paalinton
Hinay-hinay nga ginpudyot ni Lumin ang iya naga-ring nga cellphone. Gintrapuhan anay ang nagabukal nga kamot sa iya apron halin sa pagpanghugas sang kaldero.
Text halin kay Berto: “Hello Lumin, si Berto ini. Kumusta na ikaw? Kumusta kamo ni Atty. Benjamin? Gusto ko lang tani ipabalo sa imo nga nagamasakit ako subong stage four prostate cancer.’’
Daw naurungan si Lumin sa iya nabasahan. Gintulok sang malawig ang nagabukal nga kaldero kag nagaagwasa nga gripo. Madugay-dugay ini nga nakahulag bag-o ginbanlawan ang ginahugasan.
Ikaduwa na nga semana sang mag-abot sa singkwenta y kwatro nga kaso sang COVID 19 sa Pilipinas. Nag-anunsyo naman ang gobyerno nga ginadilian na ang pag-gwa sa panimalay kag kung sarang mamakal na sang mga kinahanglanun para sa malawig nga lockdown. Sunod nga ginlingling ni Lumin ang kalendaryo. Sa ikabaynte dos sang Marso, dos mil baynte ang opisyal nga lockdown sang probinsya, bawal na ang pagpasulod kag papagwa sang mga tawo sa bilog nga South Cotabato. Ginkuha sini ang ballpen kag ginbilugan ang petsa baynte.
Sa pagdangat sang alas-6, tiempo nga napreparar na ni Lumin ang panyapon. Nag-abot naman si Ben. Ginkuha ni Lumin ang suksok sini nga coat kag bitbit nga bag.
“Dali na diri, Ben, manyapon na kita. Nagpreparar ako sang paborito mo nga caldereta”.
“Abaw daw nahangpan mo gid ga ang ginapanumdum ko kaina sa opisina nga uyon ko kan-on,” sabay hakus kag haluk sa agtang ni Lumin.
Nagyuhom lamang si Lumin kag ginsukadan sang kan-on si Ben.
Wala pa ka timo si Ben nagbungat higayon si Lumin. “Nag-text si Berto, Ben”.
Nagginhawa sang madalom si Ben kag nagtangu. “Padayuna lang, ga,” kag ginsundan ini sang yuhom nga may kabalaka.
“Ga, may ara kuno siya sang stage 4 prostate cancer.”
“Ti, ano ang plano mo subong?” pagpasikto ni Ben.
“Uyon ko tani nga bisitahon siya sa sunod semana, petsa baynte. Ensakto ina bag-o ipasara sang South Cotabato ang border sa baynte y dos. Siguro makasulod pa kita sina sa Gensan.” Kag nag-galu ini sang sabaw sang kaldereta.
Nagtangu lamang si Ben. “Sige, ga, kung ina ang luyag mo. Updan ta ikaw.”
Ika-baynte sang Marso, Dos Mil Baynte: Hangpanay
Sa sulod sang ila auto, madalom ang ginahunahuna ni Lumin. Malayo ang iya panulok sa bintana sang salakyan. Nagabulubaliswa nga daw nabudlayan makapangita sang paaliwansan. Nagkambya si Ben kag sunod gin-uyatan ang kamot ni Lumin.
“Ano ang ginahunahuna mo, ga? Nagakabalaka bala ikaw?” bungat ni Ben.
“Wala, ga, nalipay lang ako. Indi man nangin maayo ang pag-upod namon ni Berto, apang nagpalangga-anay man kami sang malawig nga panahon. Kinse anyos kami nga nag-upod, malipayon kami. Labi na sang nag-abot sa amon kabuhi si Bernardo. Apang, wala gid gintigayon sang panahon nga magpadayon,” ang malawig nga pamulongpulong ni Lumin sang ginapanumdum ang nanligad.
“Nahangpan ko, ga, kinahanglan niya man ang presensiya mo sa subong nga mga tinion,” sabat ni Ben.
Padayon lang sa pag-drive si Ben. Makita na sa kalsada nga nagapinarikparik ang mga salakyan pasulod kag paggwa sa syudad. Puno ang mga palengke kag mall. Masaku na sa pagpamakal para sa ginahulat nga lockdown sa petsa baynte y dos.
Ang hulubaton sang duwa ginsundan sang kalinong. Sang mas malawig nga kalinong.
Pag-abot sang duwa sa Calumpang. Una nanaog si Lumin, gintulok ang ila daan nga balay halin sa gate. Madamo sang laya nga dahon sang paho, mala ang lupa, laya na ang sadto anay nga mga maambong kag may sinahisahi nga duag kag bayhon sang orchids, santan, kag mga tapulanga sa ila ugsaran. Puno sang kamingaw ang balay. Daw nauna pa ini sa ginapaabot nga lockdown. Ang nabilin lamang ang mga manok panabong sa ila ugsaran. Sila lang ang naga-wawaw sa bilog nga compound. Indi mahangpan ni Lumin kon wawaw ato sang kagutom ukon kapung-aw.
“Balikan ta ikaw diri karon, ga”, siling ni Ben sang ginpapanaog ang mga dala nga mga pagkaon kag grocery ni Lumin.
“Sige, ga, matawag lang ako karon sa imo. Kaya ko na diri,” sabat ni Lumin samtang ginatulok ang uhaw nga sulog nga ginagaid.
Hinay-hinay nga nagsulod si Lumin. Nagsukob anay ini sang isa ka kabo nga tubi halin sa balde nga natipon sa tubig ulan. Ginbubuan ang lata nga pan-an sang mga manok. Daw namuhaw-muhaw ang mga ini sa tubi nga ginbubo ni Lumin.
Kag nangatok ini dayun. “Berto?” kag ginsulit ini sang ikapila. Daw indi makabungat ang iya baba tungod daw kinse anyos niya na nga wala mahambal ang pangalan ni Berto. Tungod wala man natarangkahan ang puertahan, nagdiretso ini sulod. Kung ano kapung-aw ang sa ugsaran, doble ang kapung-aw nga nagkalop sa balatyagon ni Lumin. Ang sadto anay nga masadya nga panimalay, yab-ok, lawa kag guba nga bintana ang nag-abiabi sa iya pag-abot. Gintulok ang ila sadto anay nga malapad nga sala.
Nagbalik sa iya hunahuna ang mga nanligad. Kon san-o madamo pa ang mga dalagko nga tawo ang nagalagaw sa ila panimalay. Halin sa presidente, senador, gobernador, kag alkalde. Sang panahon nga nagapungko pa si Berto bilang deputy speaker sang Mindanao kag representate sang una nga distrito sang South Cotabato sa kamara de representate sa sulod sang baynte ka tuig halin sang 1991 asta 2011. Madamo man siya sang napanday nga layi, ilabi na ang Local Governance Code of 1991 nga ginagamit lang gihapon sang lokal nga pang-gobyerno asta karon. Dako man ang nabulig sang Region XII Economic Zone Program nga iya ginpangunahan. Diri natukod kag napalambo ang Dole Philippines Inc., bilang pinakadaku nga kompanya sang pinya sa bilog nga Asya. Diri matilawan ang pinakamatam-is nga pinya nga ginpatubo halin sa lupa sang Bulkan Matutum. Mangin ang General Santos City Fish Port Authority nga dulungkaan sang mga presko kag dalagku nga tuna halin sa Sarangani Bay ukon pungsod Timor Leste. Kag ang bag-o lang nga Alcantara Coal Power Plant nga natukod sa probinsya sang Sarangani halin sa iya initiyatibo. Iya man napasulod ang pinaka-una nga SM Mall sa SOCCSKSARGEN. Naghatag ini sang madamo nga trabaho kag daku nga kita pang- ekonomiya sa bilog nga rehiyon.
Uyon man sang una ni Kong. Berto ang pagpalambu sang turismo, gani isa man sya sa nagpanday sang layi sang pinakamalawig nga Zipline sa bilog nga Asya nga ara sa Seven Falls sang Lake Sebu, South Cotabato kag ang pagbansag sa bilog nga banwa bilang “Summer Capital of South Central Mindanao.” Bangud sa mayami nga hangin sini, nagdugang sa kaambong kag kaanyag diri ang tatlo ka libtong: Lake Lahit, Lake Sebu, kag Lake Seloton nga nangin puluy-an sang mga T’boli nga famoso sa paglala sang T’nalak halin sa abaka kag pagpamintay sang tilapya. Iya man ginbansagan nga “Jewel of the South” ang misteryoso, kag makakulutoy sakaon apang matahum nga libtong sa bilog nga Mindanao – ang Lake Holon sa T’boli, South Cotabato. Ini ang baba sang bulkan Melibengoy ukon Mt. Parker, halin sa pangalan sang nakatukib sini nga si Heneral Frank Parker nga isa ka amerikano nga piloto nga aksidente nga nasid-ingan ang libtong halin sa panganod sang mil noybesyentos trenta y kwatro. Isa man ini sa makahaladlok nga bulkan nga nagbuhang sang mil noybesyentos nobentay kwatro kag nagpatay sang singkwentay tres ka tawo. Ini man nga libtong ang rason sang pagguba sang balor dos syentos setentay otso nga ektarya nga kaumahan kag puluy-an sa banwa sang T’boli, Surallah, kag Sto. Niño.
Bantog, gung-an kag ginataha gid ang bilog nila nga pamilya sa patag sang politika kag pang-gobyerno. Ini gani siguro ang rason nga halos bilog nga probinsiya ihado kag ihada nila ni Berto sa kasal kag bunyag. Bisan wala na ini sa serbisyo palangga gid siya sang mga katawhan asta karon.
Wala gid makadipara si Lumin nga ara lang si Berto nagapanilag sa iya. Masaku si Lumin nga nagalili sang iya daan nga makina panahi. Kay bag-o nga nangin asawa ini sang kongresista, dungganon ini nga sastre nga nagapanghimu sang Barong kag Filipiniana sang sadto anay nga first lady Imelda Marcos. Mangin ang mga artista parehas nanday Susan Roces, Nida Blanca, kag Gloria Romero, nakasuksok na sang mga bistida nga gintahi niya.
Nag-igham si Berto para madiparahan ni Lumin. Nakasinggit man si Lumin sa kakibot.
“Kaina pa ikaw, Lumin?” pamangkot ni Berto.
“Ginkibot mo gid ako, Berto.” Nagtangu ini. “Oo, mga kinse minutos na ang naglabay sang pag-abot ko.” Kag ginsundan ini sang pagyuhom
Hinay-hinay nagpalapit si Berto para magkuha sang tubig sa kusina. Hinali ang gin-unahan ni Lumin.
“Mainom ka sang imo bulong? Ako na,” panging-agaw ni Lumin.
“Indi,” sabat ni Berto kag nagngulo-ngulo ini. “Kuhaan ta ikaw sang tubig kay basi nakapoy ikaw sang biyahe paadto diri,” sugpon sini.
“Berto, ikaw ang may sakit sa aton duwa. Pungko ka,” gindaho dayun ni Lumin ang tubig sa sadto anay nga bana.
“Salamat kay ginlaktan mo ako. Salamat kay nakahangup ka. Salamat man kay nagsugot si Atty Benjamin.” Siling ni Berto kag gin-uyatan ang wala nga kamot ni Lumin.
Kag ginsampaw man ni Lumin ang iya tuo nga kamot sa babaw sang kamot ni Berto.
“Berto, wala kita nagtapos sang maayo apang indi ko man maagwanta nga indi ikaw pagpalapitan diri,” balus sini.
Gulpi dayun ini nagtindog kag nagpalapit sa guba nga bintana kag nangusisa. “Ano na ang plano mo diri sa balay? Daw halos wala na bilin nga mga gamit diri ah. Ang sadto anay nga narra nga sala, wala na. Ang mga aparador nga gin-gama sa molave, nadula naman. Mangin ang mga antigo nga kubyertos, nagkalabuong man.”
“A, ato? Ginapamaligya ko na ato tanan, Lumin. Tutal duwa ka bulan na manlang ang akon taning. Terminal stage prostate cancer. Indi nagid ako mabuhi sang malawig, Lumin,” sabat ni Berto.
“Ngaa wala ka nagpabulong?” malip-ot nga pamangkot ni Lumin. Nagngulo-ngulo lamang si Berto. “Wala na, indi na kinahanglan.”
Nagtulon lang sang laway si Lumin kag nagtango. “Matinir kami diri ni Ben, Berto, updan ka namon.”
“Indi na kinahanglan, tuman ka saku si Atty Ben. Ginpalakat ta lang ikaw diri Lumin para mangayo ako sang pasaylo sa tanan-tanan ko nga sala sa imo. Nagahinulsol ako sa akon kakulangan bilang amay kag bana sa inyo ni Bernardo” nagtulo ang luha ni Berto sang ginpalapitan ang nagatalikod nga dati nga asawa.
Ginsunod sang panulok ni Lumin ang dapya sang hangin nga nagahampak sa dahon sang paho sa ugsaran. Hinay-hinay man nga nagtulo ang iya luha.
“Madugay na ato nga panahon, Berto, madamo na ang natabo. Magpanday naman si Bernardo sang iya nga pamilya didto sa Marbel,” padayon nga sabat ni Lumin samtang naga-agay ang iya luha.
Nagpalapit si Lumin sa dalapugan para magkuha sang lapat para trapuhan ang mga yab-ukon nga mga baso, tasa, kag plato. Ginalagas lang sang panulok ni Berto ang iya dati nga asawa. Ginkuha ang mga kubyertos, gintungtong sa lamesa kag nagpungko tupad kay Berto.
“Lumin, bal-an mo bala ang rason kon ngaa ginbayaan ta ikaw?” gulpyada nga pamangkot ni Berto.
“Oo, siling mo sa akon sang una, nagbugtaw ka nalang nga nadula ang imo paghigugma sa akon,” sabat ni Lumin samtang padayon ang pagpangnusnos sa mga yab-ukon nga kubyertos.
“Nagpati ka man?” pasikto ni Berto.
Gintulok lamang ni Lumin ang iya nanligad nga bana.
“Paano ayhan kon nagbutig ako sa imo, Lumin? Wala ko ginhambal ang matood? Paano kon naghambal ako nga may kabit ako ukon bata sa luwas? Mahalin ka pa ayhan sa puder ko?” Mga sunod-sunod nga pamangkutanon ni Berto nga wala nasabat ni Lumin, apang gintulok niya lang gihapon ini.
“Bal-an ko madamo ako kasayupan sa imo. Nasakit ko gid ang imo buot, ang imo hunahuna, kag ang imo handum. Apang sang nagkasakit ako, ikaw ang una ko ginpamaan. Gin-amligan mo gid ako sang akon balatian kag sang akon pag-antos. Siling ko, kon magpalapit ka, buot singganun, may pagpalangga lang gihapon halin sa imo. May paghigugma lang gihapon nga nabilin sa imo kasingkasing para sa akon.” Malawig nga eksplikar ni Berto.
Gintungtong ni Lumin ang ulihi nga tasa. “Sang adlaw nga ginhambal mo sa ako nga nadula na ang imo paghigugma. Wala ko ato nahangpan, Berto. Indi ako magpati nga madasig madula ang gugma sa tanan ta nga naagyan. Indi mahuyang ang gugma. Apang, kon ang paghalin ko ang makapalipay sa imo, ngaa indi, Berto? Nagpalapit ako diri sa imo kay… tungod ikaw ang nanligad ko nga bana, ikaw ang nangin kaupod ko sang una. Amu lang ato. Sarang ta ikaw tampadun subong tungod nadula na ang paghigugma ko sa imo.” Ginhikap ni Lumin sa guya si Berto kag nagtindog ini palapit sa makina sa tahi.
“Nahangpan ko na subong Berto nga ang paghigugma gali kaya madula kag kaya makuha. Ang makasulubo, nahangpan ta lang sa indi parehas nga tinakna kag panahon. Kag amu ato ang nagpasubo sa aton,” dugang pa ni Lumin.
“Salamat sa paghangup, Lumin. Salamat.”
Ika-baynte dos sang Marso, Dos Mil Baynte: Pagpasaylo
Opisyal na nga ginsugdan sang provincial government ang pagsira sang mga borders halin sa probinsya sang Davao, Sultan Kudarat, kag Sarangani. Nangin ulo ini sang balita sa mga local radio stations sa bilog nga probinsya. Mangin ang biyahe sang eroplano, ginsuspendi man sang gobyerno. Nagtinir na ang tanan nga pamilya sa ila tagsa-tagsa ka mga panimalay. Bawal naman mag-gwa ang mga bata nga wala pa baynte anyos kag mga senior citizens.
“Buot silingon sini, ga, magpasugo lang gid kita sang aton mga kinahanglanon diri sa balay,” siling ni Ben. Samtang gahigop sang kape si Lumin kag gabasa sang newspaper si Atty Ben sa ila veranda. Gulpi lang nga may nanawag sa cellphone ni Lumin.
Madugay ang nangin sugilanon ni Lumin kag ka-estorya sa cellphone.
Pagkatapos, naghigop anay ini sa iya mabugnaw na nga kape kag nagsiling.
“Ga, wala na si Berto,” napun-an sang kapung-aw kag pagtangis si Lumin, ginpalapitan ni Ben ginahakus sang himpit.
FILIPINO TRANSLATION
Bago magsimula ang lockdown: Paalala
Dahan-dahang kinuha ni Lumin ang ang kanyang tumutunog na cellphone. Pinunas muna ang bumubulang kamay sa kanyang apron mula sa hinuhugasang kaldero. Text galing kay Berto, “Hello, Lumin, si Berto ito. Kumusta ka na? Kumusta kayo ni Atty Benjamin? Nais ko lang sanang ipaalam na meron akong stage four prostate cancer.” Hindi nakakibo si Lumin sa kanyang nabasa. Napatingin na lamang ito nang matagal sa bumubulang kaldero at sa pagdaloy ng tubig sa gripo. Matagal-tagal rin itong nakagalaw bago pa tuluyang binanlawan ang hinuhugasan.
Mga ikalawang linggo na nang umabot sa 54 ang kaso ng Covid-19 sa Pilipinas. Nag-anunsiyo na rin ang gobyerno ng paglilimita sa paglabas-pasok ng mga tao sa kanikanilang mga bahay at kung kakayanin mamili na rin ng mga pangangailangan sa inaasahang mahaba-habang lockdown. Sunod namang sinilip ni Lumin ang kaldero. Sa ika-22 ng Marso, 2020 ang opisyal na lockdown ng buong probinsiya, bawal na ang pagpapasok at pagpapalabas ng mga mamamayan sa buong South Cotabato. Kinuha nito ang ballpen at binilugan ang ika-20 ng Marso.
Pagdating ng alas-sais, naghanda na si Lumin ng hapunan. Tiempong dumating na rin si Ben. Kinuha ni Lumin ang suot-suot nitong coat at binitbit ang bag.
“Halika na, Ben, kumain na tayo. Nagluto ako ng paborito mong kaldereta”.
“Parang nahulaan mo naman ang iniisip ko kaninang kainin sa opisina,” sabay yakap at halik sa noo ni Lumin.
Napangiti na lamang ito sabay kuha ng kanin para kay Ben.
Hindi pa nakaumpisang kumain si Ben, nagsalita agad ito, “nag-text si Berto, Ben”.
Napabuntong-hininga si Ben at tumango, “sige, ga, ituloy mo” at sinundan ito ng ngiti na may pag-alala.
“Ga, mayroon daw siyang stage four prostate cancer.”
“Ano ngayon ang plano mo?” tanong ni Ben.
“Gusto ko sanang bisitahin siya sa susunod na linggo, sa ika-20. Tamang-tama bago ipasara ang South Cotabato borders sa ika-22. Marahil makakapasok pa tayo sa GenSan,” At kumuha ito ng sabaw ng kaldereta.
Tumango na lamang si Ben, “sige, ga, kung ‘yan ang nais mo. Sasamahan kita.”
Ika-dalawampu ng Marso, 2020: Pag-unawa
Sa loob ng kanilang kotse, malalim ang iniisip Ni Lumin. Malayo ang kanyang tingin mula sa bintana ng sasakyan. Maya’t maya ang pagahahanap ng komportableng pwesto sa kanyang kinauupuan. Kumambya si Ben at sunod nitong hinawakan ang kamay ni Lumin.
“Ang ang iniisip mo, ga? Nag-aalala ka ba?” tanong ni Ben.
“Wala, ga, nalipay lang ako. Hindi man naging maayos ang pagsasama namin ni Berto, ngunit nagmahalan din naman kami sa mahabang panahon. Mga labing-limang taon din kaming nagsama. Lalo na nung dumating sa amin si Bernardo. Ngunit hindi siguro kami pinagbigyan ng panahon na magtagal.” Ang mahabang nasabi ni lumin habang inaalala ang mga nakaraan nila ni Berto.
“Naintindihan ko, ga, kailangan niya rin ang presensiya mo lalo na sa ngayon,” tugon ni Ben.
Patuloy lamang sa pagmamaneho si Ben. Makikita na rin sa kalsada ang pagkukumahog ng mga sasakyan na labas-masok sa siyudad. Punuan ang mga palengke at mall. Halos lahat namimili bilang paghahanda sa lockdown sa ika-22.
Ang kaninang pag-uusap ng dalawa ay sinundan ng katahimikan. At ng mas mahaba pang katahimikan.
Pagdating nilang dalawa sa Calumpang. Unang bumaba si Lumin, pinagmasdan nito ang kanilang lumang bahay mula sa gate. Maraming tuyong dahoon ng manga, tuyo rin ang lupa, tuyo na rin ang noong magansda at makukulay na bulaklak ng orkidyas, santan, at tapulanga sa kanilang bakuran. Binalot ng katahimikan ang buong bahay, parang nauna pa ito sa inaasahang lockdown. Ang nabilin lamang ang mga manok-panabong sa kanila noong bakuran. Sila na rin ang nag-iingay sa buong compound. Hindi rin maunawaan ni Lumin kung panaghoy yun ng gutom o kalungkutan.
“Balikan kita dito mamaya, ga,” sabi ni Ben habang binababa nito ang mga daladala nilang pagkain at groceries.
“Sige, ga, tatawagan kita mamaya. Kaya ko na ito,” sambit ni Lumin habang tinitingnan ang uhaw na tandang na nakatali.
Dahan-dahang pumasok si Lumin. Sumalok muna ito ng isang tabo ng tubig mula sa balde ng pinagtipunan ng ulan. Binuhasan ang mga lata ng kainan ng mga manok. Parang uhaw na uhaw nga ang mga ito sa tubig.
At nangatok na ito, “Berto?” at inulit-ulit ito ng ilang beses. Parang hindi makabuka ang kanyang bibig dahil mga labing-limang taon ring hindi niya na nasambit ang pangalan ni Berto. Dahil hindi rin trangkado ang pintuan, dumiretso na lamang ito sa loob. Kung gaano ka lungkot sa labas, doble ang kalungkutan na bumalot sa damdamin ni Lumin. Ang noong masayahing bahay, alikabok, sapot, at sirang bintana na lamang ang bumati sa kanyang pagpasok. Pinagmasdan nito ang kanilang malapad na sala.
Bumalik sa kanyang isipan ang mga nakaraan. Kung kailan marami pang pumupunta sa kanilang malalaking tao, mula sa presidente, senador, gobernador, at mga alkalde. Nung mga panahon na nakaupo pa si Berto bilang deputy speaker ng Mindanao at reresentante ng unang distrito ng South Cotabato sa kamara de representante sa loob ng dalawampung taon mula 1991 hanggang 2011. Marami rin siyang nagawang batas, lalo na ang Local Governance Code of 1991 na ginagamit hanggang sa ngayon ng mga LGU. Malaki rin ang naitulong ng Region XII Economic Zone Program na kanyang sinimulan. Dito nagsimula at mapalaki pa lalo ang Dole Philippines, Inc. bilang pinakamalaking kompanya ng pinya sa buong Asya. Dito matitikman ang matatamis na pinya na pinatubo mula sa lupa ng Bulakang Matutum. Maging ang General Santos City Fish Port Authority na babaan ng mga presko at malalaking tuna galing Sarangani Bay at Timor Leste. At maging ang bagong Alcantara Coal Power Plant na patayo ddahil sa kanyang initiyatibo sa probinsiya ng Sarangani. Napapasok niya rin ang pinaka-unang SM Mall sa SOCCSKSARGEN. Nagbigay ito ng maraming trabaho at malaking kita sa ekonomiya sa buong rehiyon.
Naging bahagi din ng kagustohan ni Kong. Berto ang pagpapalakas ng turismo, isa rin siya sa pumaday ng batas sa pinakamahabang zipline sa buong Asya na makikita sa 7 Falls, Lake Sebu, South Cotabata. At sa kanya din nagmula ang pagbansag sa buong bayan bilang “Summer Capital of South Central Mindanao.” Dahil sa malamig na hangin nito, dinagdagan pa ang ganda dahil sa talong lawa na nakapalibot ditto: Lake Lahit, Lake Sebu, at Lake Seloton na naging tirahan ng mga T’boli. Sila ang tagapaghabi ng pamusong T’nalak gawa sa abaka at pagsasaka ng tilapya. Siya din ang nagbansag ng “Jewel of the South” ang misterioso at nakakapagod akyating lawa sa buong Mindanao – ang Lake Holon sa T’boli, South Cotabato. Ito ang bunganga ng Bulkang Melibengoy o Mt. Parker, mula sa pangalan ng nakadiskubre nito na si Heneral Frank Parker. Isa siyang amerkanong piloto na aksidenteng nakita mula sa himpapawi 1934. Ito rin ang rason ng pagkasira ng halos 178 ektaryang sakahan at kabahayan sa bayan ng T’boli, Surallah, at Sto. Niño.
Kilala, may alam, at nirerespeto ang buong pamilya nina Berto sa politika at pang-gobyerno. Ito rin ang dahilan na halos buong probinsiya at mga inaanak nila ni Berto sa mga kasalan at binyagan. Kaya hanggang ngayon mahal pa rin siya ng mga mamayan niya.
Hindi man lang napansin ni Lumin na nandyan na si Berto sa kanyang likuran at nakaabang lamang sa kanya. Habang si Lumin binubutingting ang kanyang lumang makinang-panahi. Dahil bago ito naging asawa ng kongresista, kilala itongb mananahi ng mga barong at filipiniana ng dating unang-ginang Imelda Marcos. Maging ang mga artistang sina Susan Roces, Nida Blanca, at Glorai Romero, nakasuot na lahat ng mga bistidang gawa niya.
Umubo nang mahina si Berto para mapansin ito ni Lumin. Nagulat si Lumin at napasigaw ito.
“Kanina ka pa, Lumin?” tanong ni Berto.
“Ginulat mo naman ako, Berto,” tumango ito. “Oo, mga labing-limang minuto na siguro simula nong dumating ako,” at ngumiti lamang ito.
Dahan-dahang nagtungo si Berto sa kusina para kumuha ng maiinom na tubog. Sinundan naman ito ni Lumin at inunahan.
“Iinom ka ng gamut mo? Ako na,” pangunguna ni Lumin.
“Hindi,” sagot ni Berto. “Kukunan sana kita ng tubig kasi baka napagod ka sa biyahe patungo ditto,” dagdag nito.
“Berto, ikaw ang may sakit sa ‘ting dalawa. Umupo ka,” binigyan ni Lumin ng tubig ang dating asawa.
“Salamat dahil binisita mo ako. Salamat at nainitindihan mo ako. Salamat din dahil sumang-ayon si Atty. Benjamin,” saad ni Berto at hinawakan ang kaliwang kamay ni Lumin.
At pinatong rin ni Lumin ang kanang kamay sa kamay ni Berto.
“Berto, hindi tayo natapos nang maayos ngunit hindi ko rin maatim na hindi ka puntahan,: sagot nito.
Tumayo agad ito at lumapit sa sirang bintana at nagtanong, “Ano na ang plano mo ditto sa bahay? Parang wala nang naiwan na gamit dito. Ang dating narra na sala, wala na. Ang mga aparador gawa sa Molave, wala na rin. Ang mga antigong kubyertos, halos basag na rin.”
“A, yun? Binenta ko na lahat ng yon, Lumin. Total dalawang buwan na rin naman ang aking taning – terminal state prostate cancer. Hindi na rin ako mabubuhay nang
“Bakit hindi ka nagpagamot?” tanong ni Lumin.
Napalingi na lamang si Berto, “wala na, hindi na kailangan.”
Napalunok na lamang ng laway si Lumin at tumango. “Mananatili kami ditto ni Ben, Berto, sasamahan ka namin.”
“Hindi na kailangan, maraming inaasikaso si Atty Ben. Pinapunta lamang kita dito, Lumin, para humingi ng tawad sa’yo sa lahat ng kasalanan at kakulangan ko. Nagsisisi ako sa aking mga kakulangan bilang ama at asawa sa inyo ni Bernardo,” tumulo na lamang ang luha ni Berto habang lumalapit sa nakatalikod na dating asawa.
Sinunod ng tingin ni Lumin ang daloy ng hangin na humampas sa mga tuyong dahon ng mangga sa kanilang bakuran. Dahan-dahan rin ang pagdaloy ng kanyang luha.
“Matagal na panahon na yon, Berto, at marami na rin ang mga nangyari. Bubuo na rin si Bernardo ng kanyang pamilya dun sa Marbel,” patuloy na sagot ni Lumin habang patuloy rin ang pag-agos ng kanyang mga luha.
Lumapit si Lumin sa lutuan para kumuha ng basahan para punasan ang mga alikabok sa baso, tasa, at plato. Hinabol lamang ng tingin ni Berto ang dating asawa. Kinuha ang mga kubyertso, pinatong sa mesa at umupo sa tabi ni Berto.
“Lumin, alam mo ba ang rason kung bakit iniwan kita?”, tanong ni Berto.
“Oo, sabi mo sa’kin nong una, gumising ka nalang isang araw nawala na ang pagmamahal mo sa akin,” sagot ni Lumin habang patuloy pa rin ang pagpupunas sa mga alikabok ng kubyertos.
“Naniwala ka naman?” pagklaro ni Berto.
Tinitigan lamang ni Lumin ang dating asawa.
“Pa’no kaya kung nagsinungaling ako sa’yo, Lumin? Hindi ko sinabi ang totoo? Pa’no kung sinabi kong may kabit ako o anak sa labas? Aalis ka pa kaya sa puder ko?” mga sunod-sunod na tanong ni Berto na hindi man lang nasagot ni Lumin, ngunit patuloy pa rin ito ni Lumin na tinitigan.
“Alam kong marami akong pagkakasala sa’yo. Nasaktan ko ang damdamin mo, ang isipan mo, at ang mga pangarap mo. Ngunit nong nagkasakit ako, ikaw ang una kong pinaalam. Sinamahan mo ako sa aking pagkakasakit at sa aking parusa. Sabi ko, kung lalapit ka, ibig sabihin may pagmamahal pa rin mula sa’yo. May pagmamahal pa ring naiwan diyan sa puso mom” Mahabang pagpapaliwanag ni Berto.
Pinatong ni Lumin ang huling tasa. “ Nong araw na sinabi mo sa akin na nawala na ang pagmamahal mo. Hindi ko ‘yon naunawaan, Berto. Hindi ako naniniwala na madaling mawala ang pag-ibig sa dami ng ating pinagdaanan. Hindi mahina ang pag-ibig. Ngunit, kung ang pag-alis ko ang makakapagpaligaya sa’yo, bakit hindi, Berto? Nandito ako ngayon sa’yp dahil … ikaw ang dati kong asawa, ikaw ang nakasama ko noon. Yon lang. Kaya pa rin kitang harapin dahil nawala na ang pagmamahal na ‘yon.” Hinawakan ni Lumin ang pisngi si Berto sa at tumayo malapit sa makinang panahi.
“Naunawaan ko na ngayon, Berto, na ang pagmamahal pala ay kayang mawala at burahin. Ang nakalulungkot lang, naunawaan natin ‘yon sa hindi magkatugmang panahon. At ‘yon ang nagpalungkot sa atin,” dagdag pa nito.
“Salamat sa pag-unawa, Lumin, salamat.”
Ika-dalawampu’t dalawa ng Marso, 2020: Pagpatawad
Opisyal ng sinirado ng probinsiya ang mga borders galing sa Davao, Sultan Kudarat, at Sarangani. Naging ulo ito ng balita sa mga local radio stations sa buong probinsiya. Maging ang mga byahe ng eroplano, sinuspende din ng gobyerno. Nanatili na lahat ng pamilya sa kani-kanilang mga tahanan. Bawal na ring lumabas ang mga bata na hindi pa dalawampung taong gulang at mga senior citizens.
“Ibig sabihin nito, ga, magpapautos lang tayo ng ating mga pangangailangan dito sa bahay,” sabi ni Ben. Habang himihigop si Lumin ng kanyang kape at nagbabasa ng newspaper si Atty. Ben sa kanilang veranda. May tumawag sa cellphone ni Lumin.
Matagal ang naging usapan nina Lumin sa cellphone.
Pagkatapos, humigop muna ito ng kanyang malamig na na kape at nagsabing.
“Ga, wala na si Berto,” napuno ng kalungkutan at pagtangis si Lumin, nilapitan ito ni Ben at niyakap nang mahigpit.
Alvin Larida is former teacher of Dole Philippines School at Polomolok, South Cotabato. Just recently he transferred to Libertad National High School in Surallah, South Cotabato. He studied Education, majored in Chemistry and Physics at Notre Dame of Marbel University in Koronadal City. He finished his master’s degree in Science Teaching at Mindanao State University in General Santos City. He was the third prize winner of Malip-ot nga Sugilanon in South Cotabato (2019) and honorable mention during the Balay Sulat Sox: Play Writing competition (2021). He was also a fellow of Tahad: Soccsargen Creative Non-Fiction Writing Workshop (2021).
Poetry by Chris David Lao | January 17, 2022
Waiting on a bench at Big Tom’s,
I watch the child riding a thin wooden horse,
staring at his own reflection in the mirror before him,
one hand holding a lollipop to his mouth.
The buzzing hair clipper starts grazing
the back of his head. And then against his sideburns
running its cold metal base up his scalp
in a slow, even motion,
following the shape of his head.
When I was his age, wide-eyed and baby powdered,
my father would bring me to Mr. Uy’s,
a cheap, run-down barbershop,
the one with dull scissor blades
and a hair clipper that stung
when hot metal base touched the skin.
As soon as the elderly barber
draped the white cape around my shoulders,
he would tip my head slightly forward
pressing the clipper shakily on my nape,
moving it upward along the back of my head.
No wooden horse, no lollipop to lure me there.
I could’ve jumped out of the barber chair,
and screamed my way out.
Now I come here alone and sit up straight on my seat
stiff as a Chinese ear picker.
I sit on my fear that if I move a little
the barber might snip off my ear
and I would bleed to death,
the voice of my father inside my head
cursing me for giving his words of advice
a deaf ear.
Chris David F. Lao lives in Davao City. He earned his BA in English Creative Writing degree from UP Mindanao and MA in English degree from Ateneo de Davao University. His works have appeared in Mindanao Harvest 4: A 21stCentury Literary Anthology.
Poetry by Liane Carlo Suelan | January 17, 2022
If I lay on the streets gasping for life,
Will you take me from the gunfire,
Will you come back for me and run to my aid?
If blood starts to comingle with my body’s perspiration,
Will you shower me with your tears
And bathe me in your love?
If on the streets I die like the martyrs of Mendiola,
My shouts for change reduced to a whisper before the reign of darkness and
The flag I bear soiled by the blood-stained ground,
Will you raise me in your arms like the Pieta or
Will you be a Saint Michael drunk in pride,
Come spit at me, the deviant whom you always told-so?
When you bury me, Mother,
Will my grave also hold the future I envisioned,
The future that once gave me life, that you now hide beneath the earth?
Liane Carlo R. Suelan, born and raised in Davao City, is a BA in Literature student at UP Visayas.
Fiction by Angelo B. Allito | January 17, 2022
Old people smell a certain way, I should have taken that in mind before I sat next to these two Lolas. The scent inside the Pabama bus on the way here from Davao wasn’t the most pleasant, but this stench right here is something more pungent and memorable. Both Lolas and the countless faces in the crowd speak in whispers, anxiously waiting for the next spectacle to take place in the center of the cramped room.
From the very last row, I can barely make out the scenery in front of me, my vision blocked by the sweat and the shadows of at least a hundred people standing and whispering next to each other. Ah, petrichor! Yes, the two grannies and this entire room smell like petrichor! It’s a good thing that my short nose is no longer a stranger to this earthy perfume. Mama used to smell like this every Sunday at church, her white dress and red sandals completing the look. Her husband used to smell even worse, like dry soil placed underneath a mountain of cheap cigarettes. Though I’m not sure whether it’s the people who smell peculiar or maybe this is just how a tiny, cramped room along the Pulangi River should smell. I should have left Davao a little earlier, maybe catch the first bus home to Valencia. Now I’m stuck here at the last row of cheap monoblock chairs, far away from the subject of my assigned work, and surrounded by a typhoon of early Sunday morning sweat.
Trying to take my mind off the scent brewing inside the room, I take out my trusty little notepad and jot down a few initial thoughts about this place–it is cramped, humid, inhabited by an armada of retired folk with their little kids rotating around the crowd like tiny planets orbiting the Sun. Bosing wants this feature article to be in his email inbox tomorrow afternoon, and I definitely don’t want to let him down. Besides, this feature might just be what I need to climb up the ladder, rise a little closer to the top. I can see it now, Harry Principe’s article on the headline of Today Mindanao- the title makes up half of the paper cover, making all the other headlines look like footnotes to my story. Oh, who the hell am I kidding? Nobody even reads the news anymore, nobody except presumably every oldhead in this room. Mama will read it though, that’s for sure. She’s always been a fan of whatever shit I wrote, keeping my contest works in frames. Keeping them far from dust and far from her husband’s rough fingers. Well, it doesn’t hurt to dream just for a little bit, not that I have anything better to do at the moment. It was only two days ago when a coworker showed me that video of a young woman spitting out a little frog, the slimy creature croaking loudly as it emerged from the depths of the woman’s mouth.
People spitting out frogs isn’t something uncommon these days, at least here in Valencia. The peculiar video was only part of a string of viral Facebook posts showing the same scenario – people spitting out frogs after some sort of ‘healing’ ritual. All of the videos reached at least ten thousand likes and even more shares, all of them filmed at the same place, all the miracles brought upon by them by some mysterious old woman. I knew that I’d be coming home to Valencia sometime this month, Mama told me to visit them last month but I couldn’t make it, and there’s really not much to do in this little town. I knew that I had to come home sooner or later, but I never thought that it would be to write a news feature on something so ridiculous and almost certainly fake.
The heat and the buzzing inside the room grows and grows as another minute passes, swelling to an almost unbearable heat until a cool breeze passes by- a whisper of cold wind from the Pulangi accompanied by a sharp sound emitting from an old microphone. The humid silence breaks as a faint yet raspy voice slips into the microphone’s beating, echoing across the room.
“My child, do you believe?” the old voice asks.
Now that’s a great question, I do believe in a lot of things. I believe in alcohol and the naughty spirit lurking inside every bottle. Ricardo was also a firm believer of the alcoholic, he’d show me how strong its effects were through the poetry of punches to the gut and flying kicks that never missed their targets. He loved them but he worshiped and loved a greater god, the thin and silent Marlboro Reds. Mama was a believer of curses and whispers, she cursed Ricardo in heavy breathing every time he showed me his love and affection. But the god of curses is a very generous god, he listens to our ill wishes and he grants us sweet revenge. I try to move a little closer to the front when another lady’s voice replies to the question from earlier.
“Yes Inay, I believe,” a familiar voice replies from the other microphone. I’ve definitely heard this voice before, but I just can’t tell when or where, weird.
Moving away from my seat towards the cramped center aisle, I can see the miraculous old woman from the videos sitting down on a wooden chair. She sits elevated from the rest of the room by at least five levels up a little flight of steps. They call her Inay, that’s right, they do call her Inay in those viral videos. As for who she’s talking to, I have no idea. As the non-elevated regions near the front are blocked from view by a painting of sweaty backs and necks, circling around the mic stand and chattering faster than the running waters of the Pulangi. But it seems like the people attending today’s service know Inay’s client all too well, apparent in their whispers and chit-chat while the woman speaks with Inay. But then again, that’s probably how they react to everyone and anyone in this situation, Valencia is a small town, and rumors flow freely from one’s mouth to another.
Inay is the closest thing to an actual ghost that I have ever seen. From where I stand, I can clearly see that her skin is extremely pale and her limbs are like toothpicks, connected by rusty joints that creak every time she moves. Her hair is exactly like the reeds growing along the Pulangi next to us, though her reeds are dyed snow white and scattered in thinner patches across the river. She looks so old that the lolas next to me look like prepubescent Nenes when seated next to her. Forget about her being a divine healer, she looks like she could use some divine healing herself. I proceed to write down what I see–an old lady, her ethereal appearance, an eerily calm demeanor, missing teeth bearing a miraculous smile.
After scribbling down random notes and eavesdropping on the countless conversations around me, I try to move in between the countless bodies crowded around the center aisle leading to where Inay sits. Their sweat hit the floor like heavy raindrops, every drop clear to the ear and I try my damn best to navigate in between them. I push and squeeze against the sweaty backs when the sharp sound of the microphone returns once again. Only this time, the voice behind it starts to break into audible sobbing, the type of sobbing one hears in the background of dull funerals. A sobbing that only causes more whispers to emerge from the humid crowd.
“Inay, please save my husband. Save him for his lung cancer. Save him, ” the woman says in between her sobs. She barely finishes the sentence before she shrinks into a sad puddle of tears.
This familiar voice, a husband dying of lung cancer, all these seem a little too familiar. Is she the one speaking to Inay right now? It can’t be her. Please don’t tell me it’s her. Mama doesn’t come to these types of spectacles, or does she? Plowing forward across a sea of sweaty bodies, I hurry to make it to the front. I may have been a little too passionate in my clearing and sweeping aside of sweaty bodies, as I hear a couple of groans and insults come my way. But that doesn’t matter right now, I have to know if Mama is really the one speaking to Inay. Maybe I’m reading into this a little too much. That’s right! I’m just overreacting like always, there’s no way this is her. It’s not her, it’s not her, I know it’s not her. Tell me it’s not her.
“He will heal us anak. First, tell me your name,” the old healer says.
“Mirna. My name is Mirna Principe, Inay,” Mama replies. It is her.
Mirna Principe, the strongest woman I know. Mirna Principe, I did not expect you to be here. Mama, she’s really here. The crowd seems a lot quieter now, the room is suddenly cold. I push a couple more people aside and there she is, her back facing us as she faces Inay. Her white dress looks pretty like always, tiny black petals scattered across the white fabric as design. Her favorite red sandals are also present, a little muddy from the bare road outside. Seeing her outfit takes me back to when we would leave our miserable house and head to church, the cotton candy and the popcorn getting stuck between my teeth. Those were great times, our little escapes from the scent of alcohol and Marlboro. But that was long ago and those moments don’t come back again. But sometimes they do, just like today at Inay’s little monastery.
“Come and receive his love and mercy, anak.” Inay moves down the steps, leading her to be directly in front of Mama. Two boys assist Inay in her descent, making sure that the old healer doesn’t fall facedown on the floor.
Without as much as a warning, Inay puts her hands on Mama’s soft cheeks. Inay whispers something to Mama right before she covers her ears and Mama nods to whatever Inay whispered to her. I assume it had something to do with Papa’s condition, maybe a personal prayer for the great Ricardo Principe. It’s been more than a year now, a year since the god of curses granted my wish from when I was a child. The doctors had no trouble finding what was killing him when he came to the hospital last year. Lung cancer had finally replaced the cloudy smoke living inside his lungs after a lifetime of sweet nicotine. Mama told me to visit them last year when they found out about the cancer. I did not respond. I decided to hide, to run away, and write. Maybe it was because I was a failure of a son, or maybe because those beatdowns I received from Papa still hurt me every day, or maybe I just wanted to get lost in my writings there in Davao. I don’t know. Maybe I should have come, I still don’t know.
Mama closes her eyes as Inay begins to blurt out what seems like prayers or incantations in a mix of Latin and Binisaya. Her once faint voice grows louder and louder after every syllable, the prayer turning into a speeding river of gibberish litanies. The room is infested by a swarm of cautious whispering, the people clearly intrigued and bewildered by this display. Hearing them talk and whisper about Mama pulls my heart down to my stomach, the rib cage giving way for my heart to sink deep in a mixture of stomach acid, shame, and melancholy. Inay begins to rock Mama’s head back and forth as her prayers go even faster and her voice turns to the loudest I’ve heard from any old woman. She’s screaming and the veins near her throat pop out like thick tree roots. From the looks of it, Inay seems to be the one undergoing something divine here and not Mama. The brigade of non-stop gibberish continues until the sound of sobbing quiets Inay’s passionate oration. Mama’s swollen eyes rival the river’s sheer downpour. I could also feel the Pulangi flowing down my dry cheeks.
One of the girls assisting Inay approaches her with a handkerchief still clenched in her fist, she glances at Inay and nods. The girl places the pink panyo on Mama’s shut mouth, covering it fully with her fist. I hear Mama cry as her head is still rocked back and forth, tears being launched forward from all the shaking, breath not escaping. This continues until a miracle happens, a miracle that comes in the form of a loud gag, a plop, the sound of vomiting. What follows is the sound of muffled croaking, a sound familiar to the Pulangi and now to everyone in this room. A frog emerges from the wet handkerchief, Mama just vomited out a living frog.
What the actual fuck just happened. The boy assisting Inay comes in with a bucket, and a girl drops the frog into the empty bucket. I have no idea what we’ve just witnessed, that couldn’t have been real. It’s gotta be a trick, some sort of choreographed act. Maybe it was with those handkerchiefs that the girls carried, yeah that must be it! They were clutching them in their hands since they came into the room and maybe there’s always been a frog inside them, opening them up to reveal the ‘miracle’ while Inay distracts the crowd. Or maybe I’m reading into these details a little too much. Divine healer or not, Inay is great at comforting disturbed people, maybe that’s the miracle in itself. The crowd’s whispering quiets down after the miracle that croaked right before their eyes.
I head back to writing down the insanity in this room- weird incantations, Mama’s head bobbing back and forth, the pink panyo, and a goddamn frog.
“He has touched your soul, anak. Keep your faith and your husband will be healed,” Inay says as she hugs Mama.
Mama does not reply, she instead hugs the old ‘healer’. They both cling tightly, Mama’s cries being muffled by the fabric covering Inay’s shoulder.
“Take this, it will keep him safe.” Inay hands Mama what looks to be a small pendant, a small piece of silvery metal held in place by a black string. There appears to be some sort of design carved etched into the metal but I can’t exactly make it out from this distance. Inay is assisted again by the two boys as she makes her way up and into a small door just behind her chair. It seems like today’s main attraction is coming to a close.
Mama turns away from Inay, making me jump behind some stranger in the crowd. The old man covering me is not amused by my actions, he raised his brows and crumpled his forehead. I take a peek to see that Mama is now headed to the side exit of the cramped room, although I am unsure if this is the end of this morning’s miracles or whether Mama just wants a breath of fresh air from the Pulangi. But this uncertainty is soon answered by that familiar and ever-painful sound of the microphone and the cheap sound system.
“Okay, brother and sisters, Inay will now be taking her rest, you can come back later this afternoon as we continue our sessions of faith,” a young woman with short hair and round glasses announces. There is an audible groaning and grunting from the crowd, perhaps wanting to see more of the old lady’s powers.
“For now, we are knocking on your kind hearts to donate and purchase some healing relics if possible. Daghang Salamat and God Bless.” She turns off the microphone and leaves in the direction of Inay.
A group of young girls goes around the room carrying small baskets, smiling as almost all the people throw away coins and even different colored paper bills into the boxes. Near the main entrance to the building, there seems to be a long line for some sort of ‘healing relic’. For someone who seems so simplistic and anti-materialistic in nature, Inay sure has a great sense of business and profit. Heading to the table that people are lining up for, I see two young men selling some sort of pendant to the attendees. The same exact replica of what Inay gave Mama after her ‘healing’. I left home three years ago looking for success as some kind of journalist, only to end up in an old rundown apartment and stuck in mediocrity at work. If only I knew that this type of job would be so profitable, I might have also set up my healing camp along the Pulangi as well. But alas, here I am. This is perhaps the best time to catch up with Inay, ask a few questions about what she does, and maybe even ask her a little bit about earlier. Taking all the little courage and determination I have left in me, I make my way to the door where Inay and her supporters entered a little earlier.
A single knock, nothing happens. I knocked again, twice this time. Still, no answer. Sweating profusely, I begin a series of light tapping on the wooden door, growing stronger and stronger in volume within a few seconds. The wooden door and the people inside stay mute. I continue the knocking and the knocking until the door opens from the other side. The short-haired girl with the ‘healing relic’ announcement from earlier stares at me, clearly annoyed by the knocking.
“Unsay ato? Mama is still busy and please just come back later.” She tries to slam the door back shut.
“I’m Harry Principe from Today Mindanao. You know, the newspaper company. I’d like to speak to Inay, it will be quick. I promise-” The door slams shut.
The door opens up once again and the woman just stares at me, measuring every inch from head to toe. For someone who works with such an understanding figure, this lady sure has judgmental eyes.
“So you can call her a fraud? Or maybe a crazy old woman? No thanks mister,” she replies.
Well, I definitely should have seen this coming, news outlets and faith healers don’t really have the best of history with each other. Sure they enjoy the free publicity, but all that noise creates even a whole lot of unnecessary drama and speculation. More drama, more controversy. And except for maybe Hollywood celebrities or social media influencers, nobody wants controversy. It’s alright, I just have to be really careful with how I go over this. Just need to be honest and look reliable enough for her to accept the offer.
“I’ll be writing a news feature, not an opinion piece. It’ll be just about this place and what happens here, no personal judgments involved,” I reply.
“Pasudla siya Anna, we don’t wanna be called rude in tomorrow’s news,” a familiar voice proclaims from inside the room. Inay seems very welcoming of this short interview.
Anna obeys her command and lets me into the small room, a small bed with a wooden frame and legs occupies at least half the entire room. On the walls are countless rosaries and little icons of the Holy Family, perched up like porcelain dolls on dusty wooden shelves. Inay sits on the side of the bed, a cup of cold water in her hands. She must be tired after that litany of incomprehensible prayers from earlier, that would have consumed all my saliva and strength if I was in her place. Up close, Inay’s divine and ethereal image seems more noticeable, I don’t know just how old she is but she’s definitely up there in age. Inay motions for me to sit down on a small wooden chair a few steps away from the bed. I approach the short seat, resting my nervous bottom on the wooden surface. From the back, I hear Anna closing the door gently. This is it, let’s just get this over with.
“Ah, good day po, Inay. As you may have heard, I am from Today Mindanao and I will be writing a news feature about you and your work here in Valencia. Is it okay if I conduct just a small interview right now? It would only take a couple of minutes po,” I explain to the old woman.
“Ay sige lang dong, just make it quick. Okay?” Inay says with the same smile from earlier.
“So let’s start with your identity po. People on Facebook and your supporters call you Inay. Can you tell us a little bit about yourself and who Inay really is?”
Inay doesn’t respond. Did she hear me? Maybe she’s just taking her time. She just sits on the side of the bed, her eyes barely open. Is she asleep? No way. I can see her heavy blinking, slow and steady, in complete sync with her deep breathing. Not knowing what to do, I turn to face Anna. The expression on her face is hard to describe, not telling of any particular emotion. I see my tiny reflection on her round glasses, her eyes not flinching or even blinking. It’s been at least ten maybe twenty seconds now, Inay is still dead silent. For the second time, I turn to face Anna and she now seems more concerned and involved with the happenings in the room. Anna takes a step towards us and begins to talk to Inay, only to be stopped in her tracks by Inay’s response to my question. Finally, she answers me.
“Well, my Papa named me Faustina, ah Faustina K. Rabak. I was born on, on. When was it? Ah, December 12, 1941. It was early dawn when Mama finished giving birth to me, that’s what my Papa told me. However, my manangs said it was late at night, the day before. So I don’t really know,” Inay says to me. She drinks from her cup as she finishes her answer, the sound of cold water running down a dry throat fills the empty room.
Well that was quite the long answer and it sure took a long time to form inside her head, this interview will go on forever at this pace. I note down what Inay mentioned, her name and age are really all that matters for the article, but I’ll take all the extra info she can provide. Besides, she seems like a lot of fun to talk to, in a slow yet charming sort of way. Just really slow in her speech. Really, really slow.
“I was the youngest girl in the family. Not the youngest child, the youngest girl. I had a little brother named Ponciano, he was the youngest. There were 12 of us, we were quite the lively household. We also had step-”
“I think you already answered Mr. Principe’s first question, Ma. Next question na,” says Anna. Thank God, Anna decided to step in and help out even just a little bit. I definitely don’t have the energy to listen to all of Inay’s entire life story. The old woman keeps her smile on her face, not bothered by the side comments.
“No, your answer was perfect Nay,” I told her in my most sincere voice. “Before you became this sort of icon here in Valencia, what was it that you were doing? Like a job or maybe a passion.”
“Well, I worked as a school teacher until my retirement from a long time back. I love working with people, especially the young ones. I’d still be teaching today if I was to follow my heart. But now I have a greater mission in life.” Inay’s smile grows longer and wider, glowing like a ripe banana on her withered face.
“A greater mission? What is this mission po?”
“To help the needy and to heal the sick. Mama Mary told Inay to do so,” Anna suddenly answers from behind me, her back against the door. She really seems to wholeheartedly believe Inay’s teachings and miraculous prowess, evident with the intensity and passion she displayed in her unexpected declaration.
“The Virgin Mary told you?” I turn to Inay and ask her in bewilderment and apparent disbelief.
‘In a dream. She told me what to do in that dream. She healed me in that dream, all of my sins purified by her love and God’s grace. Her hands were soft and warm on my skin, her face so beautiful and fair. She healed me, cleansed me from my sins and worries.”
“Healed? Like what you do to the people who approach you?”
“Exactly like that, I also spit out all the impurity during that one dream.” Inay replies.
My pen dashes across my trusty notepad, I write down Inay’s alleged divine encounter. She spat out her impurities? Does that mean that she also spit out a frog, but only in her dreams? Weird. If this really is just some sort of scam or some brilliant act, Inay is definitely a hell of an actress. Or even worse, does she really believe all of these? Like some sort of delusion, a lived lie that has turned into some sort of truth. Whatever it is, Inay and Anna seem perfectly fine with it.
“Obviously, there are people skeptical and doubtful of what you do here. How do you feel about that?” I ask her.
Inay doesn’t respond, again. She returns to that state of drowsy stasis from earlier, blinking in lengthy intervals. Not this again, the interview was going so well. Was the question offensive. I don’t think it was. Wait, was it? Anna also doesn’t seem impressed with the question, her unamused eyes staring blankly towards my direction. And they said I had to make this interview quick, Inay seems to be in no rush to finish this whatsoever. The room is freezing cold, a chilling and stark contrast to the oven that is the adjacent hall. But why am I sweating like crazy? This is the coldest I’ve felt today. Inay takes another sip of her cold water, heavy gulping breaks the silence once more. Are they going to speak anytime soon? Well, this is awkward. I feel another drop of sweat forming down the side of my face when Inay finally responds.
“You don’t believe, do you?” Inay says in a faint voice.
“I don’t think that has anything to do with my question, Inay.” I glance at the concrete floor, hoping that this will end soon.
“No, no, it doesn’t,” she replies. “But you don’t believe. Why is that, Mr. Harry Principe?”
I keep my mouth shut.
“Prin… Principe? How are you related to that woman from earlier? Mirna Principe or what was her name again,” Inay says to me.
“It’s a very common family name, Inay. Besides, that doesn’t really answer the question from earlier,” I said to Inay, hoping that she’ll believe me.
“Well, I don’t really mind those non-believers, Anak. I just do what I can to help people like Mirna. Her sorrow felt heavy when I was talking to her earlier, poor woman. I trust that our Father helps her husband, he will always protect us. I’d like to think that Mirna feels a little bit better now, after her experience of his great and warm love. Don’t you think so, Harry?” Inay smiles at me.
“Maybe, Inay. Maybe,” I reply.
I thank Inay for her time and I leave the small room, returning to the humid climate of the other room. A few quick steps towards the exit leads me to the muddy road bordering the entrance. Fresh air, something badly needed after a whole hour of floating in a mixture of sweaty fragrances. I see one of the girls assisting Inay walk past me with an empty bucket, where did Mama’s frog go? She did come from the direction of the lonely Pulangi, maybe she let the little fella go after his bizarre birth. Then again, maybe that’s where they catch all the frogs, hiding them until their big ‘miraculous’ reveal. I don’t know, I really don’t know. A tricycle passes on by and I hop in. I tell the Manong driver my destination and the wheels of the tricycle rub against the mud. The small vehicle starts moving but it suddenly comes to an abrupt stop. What is it this time? I hear a now familiar voice call out to me, Anna runs up to the entrance with a shiny object in hand. She hands me a small pendant, the one Inay gave Mama and like the ones they sold earlier. She says it is from Inay, leaving as soon as she finishes her delivery. Weird.
The view of the entrance to Inay’s mini monastery grows smaller and smaller as the tricycle races away from the riverside. I feel my notepad slip out of my pocket. I push it back along with the pendant from Inay. What’s this? I notice the peculiar design etched into the silver pendant. On one side is the image of the Virgin Mary, on the other, a small figure of a frog laying flat on the surface. I’ve forgotten about the article but I think I’ve got a great title- Our Lady of the Frogs. I push back the notepad and the pendant deep into my pocket, there’s something I need to do first. I arrive at the public market and the Manong driver leaves me.
I buy some apples, some oranges, and some bottled cans of much-needed forgiveness. Papa probably deserves all these. I buy some for myself and for Mama as well. Jesus Christ, this market smells bad. A quick hour passes by, two bags of random fruits and supermarket goods are not easy to carry. This tricycle ride to the city hospital feels like an eternity. I ask the front desk for Papa’s room number, it seems like Mama also just arrived here a little earlier. Through a rosary of concrete stairs, with each step being a silent Our Father or another Hail Mary, I finally reach room 148. I drop a single knock on the pretty door, the knob instantly turning on the other side. From here I can smell the air freshener of Papa’s room, it’s not the best but I’ll learn to live with it.
“Our Lady of the Frogs”
by Harry Principe
Inside a small house near the Pulangi River in Valencia City is a crowded room of devout followers and believers of the miraculous Inay. Faustina K. Rabak, a 79-year-old faith healer is perhaps the most talked-about person in the province of Bukidnon following her many miracles and acts of healing. A retired elementary school teacher of Valencia City Central School, Rabak has amassed a sizable following who passionately refer to her as Inay. These followers flock Rabak’s small house every Sunday for her ‘Sessions of Faith’, a two-part (Morning and Afternoon) gathering where devotees seek guidance and healing from their Inay. In an interview with Today Mindanao, Rabak claims that her mission to help the needy and the sick came to her in a dream with the blessed Virgin Mary. Videos from these ‘Sessions of Faith’ have been uploaded on different social media platforms such as Facebook and Twitter, each of the upload reaching at least ten thousand likes and shares.
The main focus of the sessions, as seen in the videos uploaded online, is Inay’s gift of healing. This miraculous process of healing involves the faith healer holding and touching the head area of the devotee, moving and rocking it to the sound of Inay’s litany of prayers spoken in many different dialects. All of these performative acts of healing ended with the devotee spitting out a live frog, croaking loudly as Inay finishes her miracle. This peculiar act of alleged divine miracle has not only made Inay recognizable to the region’s citizens but has also set up quite a debate regarding its authenticity. A large number of believers believe that Inay’s works are indeed divine and healing in nature. A resident of Valencia and a follower of Inay, Mirna Principe, gives her testimony regarding her experience with Inay’s act of healing. Principe states that “Inay has been a source of hope for me and my family during a dark time in our lives”. She also credits Inay as being responsible for guiding her husband’s valiant struggle against lung cancer, adding that Inay has also made their family closer and stronger after her healing. On the contrary, a number of commenters in the many Facebook posts have expressed their doubts and skepticism regarding Rabak’s operations and intent. They posit that the whole frog act is orchestrated before the session occurs, pointing out that each reveal is the same as the last, with the frog emerging from a handkerchief that covered the devotee’s mouth.
Addressing the naysayers and the skeptics, Rabak says that she doesn’t mind these criticisms and instead focuses on helping the different people who approach her. Both the local Catholic Parish and the City Government are still to give their official statements regarding Inay’s operation and services. Though it remains unclear whether Rabak’s activities are for the better or for the worse, Inay has become a major talking point in the locale and in the entire region. Many lives and narratives are still to be influenced by the mysterious healer of Valencia City, our lady of the frogs.
Poetry by Alyana Pauline L. Presores | December 27, 2021
As fast as reptiles molt their skin,
October is on its way to an end in a few days now.
Swiftly, instantly—I only blinked twice,
and here we come to the final scene:
autumn foliage of maples,
dead twigs,
barren and lifeless trunks.
I saw couples taking photographs
of that perished oak tree
with the setting sun behind,
and I heard them call it poetic.
“What’s so poetic about dying?”
Oh! I forgot that people love dead things.
When decaying bodies lie in open caskets—
decaying bodies that are cold and insensible—
they come to call it poetic.
They all come together to offer flowers
and sing a threnody—
dirges so sweet and soothing.
Dirges are so sweet but useless.
A vigil is an opera.
For many, a vigil is a reunion.
But my funeral is not a place to reunite,
and I didn’t die beautifully.
I rot, I decay, I decompose:
my death is not poetic.
I will disperse to be one with the void.
My death is not an occasion for your
get-togethers and photoshoots.
My death is not to be mourned.
Before this month ends,
I’m sure I’ll become that perished oak tree,
only not for snapshots.
I’ll still be dead. Just dead.
Nothing but dead.
It will only be the final scene
of my dying phases
as I die each day in a month.
Yes, I died a long time ago,
and none of you noticed.
Alyana Pauline L. Presores, 19, was born in Magsaysay, Davao del Sur, but grew up in Monkayo, Davao de Oro. She skipped two academic years due to mental health issues, but she’s planning to continue her studies and pursue BS Psychology next school year.
Fiction by Lexi Eve L. Bacala | December 27, 2021
The little girl absentmindedly followed the old man 10 feet behind. She had been trailing aged Benjamin since he got out of the house. He walked past the playground and the school while greeting other people, and the girl didn’t seem to have noticed how far they had come.
She watched curiously as he stepped down a meadow of bright and vivid flowers. She was about to follow him there too when a woman embraced her, halting her steps.
“Where have you been, Farrah? I told you to behave, didn’t I?” The mother anxiously looked at her daughter. “Let’s go home now. I won’t allow you to come with me when I go to the store next time!”
The girl was dragged by her mother, and she silently obeyed, but she started spouting questions.
“Who was that grandpa, Mommy?”
The mother turned back to see Benjamin setting down the blanket nicely and cozily. She felt empathy for a moment for the old man. “That’s Sir Benjamin, sweetie. He and his wife used to go there often when she was still alive.”
“But where is she now, Mommy?”
Her mother shifted her gaze towards her and remembered her daughter’s fault. While the noise of the mother’s warnings was vaguely heard in the meadow, Benjamin chuckled at the sound of it. He positioned himself carefully while dragging his pencil to the roughly textured paper. He hummed along with the birds near him and the gentle blow of the midday gust while chomping on his sandwich. It had taken Benjamin long, wretched years to recover from Jennifer’s death, and he was still in the process—but the process was worthwhile. The neighborhood encouraged his progression and complimented him every once in a while for emotional support.
Benjamin was recalling a certain memory of his lovely wife while drawing. He remembered how calm and undisturbed the late noon had been when they met there in the meadow. Jennifer with her splendor and grace, greeting him lovingly—and Benjamin remembering the memories they spent together in the flowery field.
Old Benjamin was thinking out loud when he was finishing up. “Jennifer was always fragrant,” he told himself, “like angel’s trumpets.”
He put the pencil down and mutely scanned his sketch. He praised himself for not losing his touch in the hobby he had almost abandoned in his depression. He loved the way he drew the details of Jennifer’s face and the precise expression it showed despite not having a reference.
Benjamin’s lips moved to a genuine smile. He pecked a kiss on the face of a dreadful, horrified Jennifer—an emotion he hadn’t seen for a long time. Benjamin patted the ground he sat on, Jennifer’s favorite spot, and said, “You were always perfect, dear, but it does scare me often, you know?”
Jennifer always wants everything to look the best.
Lexi Eve L. Bacala lives in Davao City. She is a Grade 12 HUMSS student at Daniel R. Aguinaldo National High School.
Poetry by Ivan Ridge Arbizo | December 27, 2021
Inday:
Daliti imong pinalangga og usa ka balak.
Ayaw ipahalok imong ngabil balik sa iyang
mga bakak. Ilubong ang nagbangotang hagaw-
haw sa inyong kagahapon dinhi ilalom
sa nangalarag nga dahon sa himatyong puno-an.
Ang mga tiil sa tayaong orasan, magtaki-ang
og tinuyok sa iyang kaugalingong dagan.
Sulayi og sukod ang gilapdon sa kagabhion.
Tugoti mahagbong ang mga bituon.
Kinsa’y nakahibalo kanus-a mapislok
ang inyong handomanan?
Dodong:
Kinsa’y nakahibalo kanus-a mapislok
ang inyong handomanan? Tugoti
mahagbong ang mga bituon. Sulayi
og sukod ang gilapdon sa kagabhion.
Ang mga tiil sa tayaong orasan, magtaki-ang
Og tinuyok sa iyang kaugalingong dagan. Dinhi
ilalom sa nangalarag nga dahon sa himatyong
puno-an, ilubong ang nagbangotang hagaw-
haw sa inyong kagahapon. Ayaw ipahalok
imong ngabil balik sa iyang mga bakak.
Daliti imong pinalangga og usa ka balak.
Ivan Ridge Arbizo lives in Davao City.