Three years down the drain
Left me with cloudy rectitude
A woeful plea in temperance
A series of anxious trepidation:
I dread the rain
The unseen and stifled pain
The haunting echo of being insane
I fear the solitude
The faltering incertitude
The desolate ruin of my fortitude
I worry the dissonance
The restless resistance
The formidable need for assurance
I agonize over the regression
The lingering tension
The wounded, toxic repetition
How can I love again
When life is full of vicissitude?
How can I seek acceptance,
When I’m fading into deep attrition?
Maybe I will never know.
Marevic Jean P. Lutog is an instructor at Davao Oriental State University. She writes poems and stories as her primary outlet for expressing her concealed emotions since she finds solace in literature.